Must Warn you its long lol


So here it is the life of Spirtwind my life has many ups and downs just like everyone else, but i see life from a different point of view.

I know that some of what you will read may upset some of you or make you angry.

All that i ask is try and not be upset or angry i chose this life before coming back to the earth plain I thank creator for this life for I have wisdom to share with all that i meet be it in person or on the net.

People have asked me if i miss not walking I say i dont miss what i never hard.

this is just a short intro as to what you can expect from me in my posts. all the information is true ( i cant lie lol ) i will be very honest about myself and about the things that have hurt me and made me happy i will even share wilth you the most painful time in my life which is the passing of my eldster sister. and my happiess moment when i met my online sister Kolibri.

Well my life began on March 14 1969 7.30pm
I was born with Athrogryposis Mutliplex Congenta it affects 1 in every 3000 live births. The way it affects me is around my joints and the muscles.

When i was born i was like a package with a head lol (thats how mum discribes it) i could only move my head an 1/4 of an inch my arms were streight down very close to my torso my left hand was stuck to the under part of my arm, my legs were like frogs legs shot out sideways from the hip to the knee then from the knee to my feet shot inwards and my feet were like buds.

I wasn't allowed to sit up for my first two years of life, poor Dr Harper he use to come to our house to strich my limbs, he had to do it but i was left crying and bleeding as the skin would crack around my joints, he always left the house crying as he always blamed himself for the way i was, no one blamed him. Just one of those things that happens

My first big operation was on my hips they had to be turned around so i could sit normally. In each hip i have a metal plate and 4 screws (which i still have today). Well my left hand turns sideways its like a flipper (i can wave to people going around the corner lol) my feet never really grew they are about the size of a 3 year old. When they wanted blood from me they use to but the thing around my neck. It got to the point that anytime that i was due to go into hospital i would start screaming at the hospital gates (even today i start to panic when i have to go in to hospial) so to stop this i would go in the morning have the opration that afternoon and go home the next day (were i was good as gold lol).

I remember when i was 3 i was in hospital there was only 3 sets of people that could stop me crying mum was one a cleaner of the hospital and the guys in the burn ward ( which was at the end out of the ward i was on) the nurses always knew where to find me if i wasn't in my bed i would sitting on the bed of one of the guys with burns playing cards lol.

There was a lady who lived near us who use to visit every day she would sit on a hard chair for hours on end holding me and rocking me sadly she couldn't have children of her own because at the time ( but we don't know it at the time ) she was dying of cancer, it was sad when we had to leave the farm were we we lived we found out about a month later she passed away in her sleep.

School Days

Well when i started school i was 5 we lived in a little country town, where there was two schools that i could go to. One was the public school and the other was the Catholic school, so i was enrolled in the public school, which wasn't to nice to me, the kids would think it was funny to see me fall flat on my face as they tipped me out of my chair. The teachers did nothing to stop this and other bullying it got to the point that i didn't even want to go to school. It was about this time that i met up with Father Leo Close who was also in a wheelchair he was in charge of the chatholic education in our area, (i met him in the pub when i was about 6 lol) we asked if i could go to the catholic school just up the road from were we lived. So i got to meet the nuns they said they would take me as long i was treated like a normal child. Well i dont know what they called normal, (as i was the only one who had a big orange curshion to sat on and a coffee table as a desk lol.) I loved it there all the other kids would fight over as to who push me around that day some would even start to cry if they couldnt push me so the ones that cried they were told that they could push me tomorrow, and that usually dried the tears. There was a horse in the back paddock of the school we were allowed to freed the horse it was a grayish whiteish color the person who was pushing me that day would also pick the grass for me so i could freed him too. ( maybe thats where my love of horses started) but sadly were had to move to the city because i needed therapy, so yet another school.

Well we lived on a hill 10 steps to get into the house and (we were told that the house was ok for a weelchair lol), so i started at this other school were they had a unit for kids with disabilities well i was placed in there my schooling slid back 2 years ( never been able to get them back either ) while at this school we had to travel by taxi to and from school, there was one driver i really didn't like i always made sure that i was close to the door as possible my hand on the door handle, well a few years later i found out why i didn't like him ( he was had up for abusing children ) im so glad that i listened to my innerself.

Well i was one of the lucky ones who got intergrated with the normal school. Nothing much really happened apart from the reason why i was pulled from that school.
The reason was some of the teachers said i was lieing about why i came home one day and i hadn't eatin my lunch well, i was kept in over lunchtime as i hadn't finished some school work because i didn't understand it, so i did as i was told.
Mum asked the teacher why i had been kept in over lunch time she said that i hadn't been kept it mum throught i was lieing so i had to keep repeating my story over and over again but every time mum talked to the teacher her story changed but mine didn't, so thats why i left there.

Plus i found out a number of years later that the headmaster of the unit used my name to get an electric wheelchair for another child ! we weren't asked about it either i only found out by accident it was all in my file that ccs had on me (crippled children soceity) i was meeting my case worker for the first time and she had my file with her so i was cheeky and asked if i could have a look she said sure as it is all about you when i found it i said hey whats this? she came over and had a look she said thats for your electric wheelchair, both mum and i said what wheelchair and the look of horror on kaths face said it all, by the sound of it we weren't suppose to know!.

Well back to more of my school days lol

School number 4 another catholic one this one wasn't run by nuns spent 2 years there only had 2 good friends there. Yep i was picked on again but this time i gave back what i got.
I was shocked ( i was in the classroom at the time) when my teacher asked the rest of the class if i should be moved up a class for the following year, the class all said i should be kept back and i was. so at the end of my second year i was pleased to be out of it.

School number 5 one of the best schools ever Queens High School best years of my life.
In those days the different areas of the city had zones for schools well i was in a school zone that hated the name marychurch well we when and saw the head mistress of Queens High to see if i could get in to her school well that dear lady went to the New Zealands capital Wellington to see the minister of education Merv Wellington well it worked. It was great there the teachers were great my first few days were abit odd as there was a test match on ( of cricket its a sport played in some counties in there summer time) i had my ticket i had to asked if it was ok if i could start school after the game i was allowed to got to the match as long as i went to school on there rest day which i did ! lol i left school when i was 16.

My 21st

In 1990 I turned 21.

It was a very Special time for me for 2 reasons, one was to meet one of my fav people in the world and my sister came home to stay for awhile.

Well my birthday started back in Jan of that year, as i was reading The Sunday Times ( a news paper in NZ ) in there was a full page of Tour dates for Billy Connolly (scottish comedain) i looked to see if he was coming to Dunedin i couldn't believe my eyes he was playing the Dunedin Town Hall on the 14th march my birthday!!!!! lol i yelled for mum so i could tell her what i wanted for my birthday ( at the time she kept asking what do you want for your birthday?) I was ready to tell her that i wanted a ticket to his concert !

About a week before he was due in town mum said why don't you call and see if you can meet him, so i called the town hall and asking i was told sorry hes a very private person and there would be no way of meeting i said oh ok fair enough.

So the night of the concert arrived and so did kath bond who was being my driver for the night.

As soon as we arrived this usher came up to us and asked if was Kathy i said yeah why? he said would you like your seat or somewhere were you can see i chose to sit were i could see im not silly lol

I really enjoyed the show went home with very sore sides lol
so at the end of the show the same usher came back and said we have to let some of the crowd out then i have to take you somewhere special, (still it didnt click im slow on the up take here lol).

so we were waiting for the lift by the stage steps when i heard someone humming happy birthday i look at the stage steps here was Billy coming down the steps humming it, great night got to meet him after all, i even got a photo and autograph for both myself and my mum. plus he wrote me a little poem:

Goodnight my dear in sweet repose
lay on your back and you won't squash your nose lol

Then when i got back home i found out that my sister who i hadn't seen in years was down from Timaru (a small town near christchurch south island nz)

So between when i called the town hall and the night of the concert someone called a managed to arrange the meeting, who it was i don't know and to this day i still dont know. (and no ones saying either lol)

so thats my 21st

Work Days

Well i have worked in 4 jobs, one as an avon lady which i didn't like to much lol.

My fav job was working as a volunteer at The Otago Museum, i had a ball working there one of my first jobs was a bit boring but someone had to do it. (i didn't mind doing it either i always had a smile on my face lol)

It was to count people as they came through certain doors of the building there were counters on the doors but they wanted to see they were working ok, during this time we had the Spring Fling going, (it was a week of fun actives ) on the last day we had a lot of activites for the whole family (my poor finger lol i counted over 1000 people go through the front door !) I was rushed off my wheels lol i was also making badges for kids it was a great day.

The next thing i was asked to help with was the Royal Dalton Show i worked the till with that show but i found that i was a bit slow on cashing up at the end of the day, i loved looking at the Dalton i even got a peace that made me $325 NZ pooer lol but every time i went past this table it would leep out at me i knew i had to get it ( its called the leep Its a Dolphin leeping out of the water lol).

The next show i worked at i was a secruity person it was glass show were it had different things like waves, sea foam, shells all made out of glass it was well done by a guy who has only one eye, hes from Settle USA. The next show was pottery very well made, ( the opening was great to but there was something was missing, opps someone forgot to invite the artist to the opening of his own show! hmmmm it wasn't me lol) by this time i found my niche. I was for ever being called in because who ever was assigned to do their shift never turned up! ( it happened mostly at the weekends, i didn't mind to much but i would have liked to have the odd weekend off lol they knew they could depend on me to turn up i was always early and rearing to go lol)

Moving to Australia

Well it all started back when i was 15 or 16, well mum use to have her tarot cards read once a year and i asked if i could too both mum and the reader said yes, she told mum that she would move first she moved over here when i was 24 then when it was my turn she told me that i would move too but at a later time i said heck no way am i moving to australia! well it wasn't to end there lol i helped a friend out in her shop (this was about after 2 years after mum left nz) and my friends mum is a medium and i was given a reading by her (wow it was mind blowing) not only was i told that i was still going to move but my man was over there in Australia and i would be doing healing as well and i throught (yeah ok whatever lol) well in 1995 i came over for a holiday my Aunt and Uncle took me to the Dunedin airport and saw me off lol, i was going to spend 3 weeks in Australia one week in Sydney and 2 weeks in Kimba with mum.

I made sure i was in Sydney over a weekend i planned to go and see Phantom of the Opera With Rob Guest as The Phantom (met rob back in 1988 at the very first telethon i ever when to lol) I had a ball in Darling Houbour great shops great markets at the weekend (the makets were just along from my hotel lol) and just around the corner of my hotel was Chinatown loved going there too lol when the week was up i went to Adelaide city (i had to fly from Sydney to Adelaide)

Then it was a 6 hour car drive to get to kimba (small town) but clean air to breathe little or no traffic at the weekends (still that way today almost nine years on) you can leave your house open (no real crime here ) only need one copper ( policeman ) in town, people really friendly very quiet. i didn't do much lol just got a tan lol

Then i had to leave to go back to nz so another 6 hour drive to adelaide (get the feeling i never got to see adelaide? lol) i was abit sore when i got back to Dunedin after being man handled to and from my seat on the plane.

Was met at the airport by my Aunt and Uncle again as we were driving along my Aunt asked me this " when are you moving back there?" I said im not NZ is home (boy was i wrong) my mind was made up for me that winter I froze it was so cold there was snow! on the beach near were i lived so i told my dad that im moving to australia but i had to wait until he retired from work i sold him my car got my ticket and got my stuff packed by a removeal firm all my stuff left the house on the 4th of june and never to be seen untill october 9th lol but thats another story lol i left NZ june 7th, it was still cold in kimba but not as wet and cold as Dunedin gets lol.
I made sure my electric blanket was in my suitcase lol

and thats my move to Australia

My Journery into Darkness

Well my journery started that day my sister killed herself 4th feb 2001, it continued to jan of this year 2004.

It wasn't easy to get through 2001 first it was her passing then my best friend from the net then 9/11 the only bright spark was meeting my tony.

I know if i had the guts i would have taken my life too, but i know that i was sent here a for a reason.

So i started to look else were to try and easy my pain , i tryed booze (but i didn't like the taste to much lol) Then i met this woman in a chatroom and we got talking she asked me over the chat server on bigpond (its server with chat channels) thats were i found out the shes a Witch yes a witch a white witch (or so she says) so i turned my back on the red road to follow her (as you can see it didn't work out, and thank creator that it didn't) lol well she took me under her wing so to speak (yes i started to train as a witch) but it didn't sit right with me, something kept saying its not for you, but i didn't listen to my inner voice then December happened i invited a friend to join us in the chatroom it was his birthday well he no sooner got in to the room she started to attack him for no reason, it was then i really opened my eyes to see her as what she is really like.

Well she turned on me for no reason (just like anyone that was her friend) so i backed out as i didn't want to fight her ( im not like that) thats when the nasty emails started, i never replied to them untill i was shown a posting on another (innocent site) were i was called retarded, well i saw red i couldn't let that pass like all the other stuff she said.

So i posted on her notice board all the emails that she sent me and the post were i was called retarded, then i told her that to me that shes a dead issue (since then no more nasty emails) so thats a blessing.

Well i found my way back home to the red road and i found all my native american friends waiting for me ( as she tried to breakup all my friendships).

Then one Jan morning 2004 I was talking with a native american friend he showed me how to meet my Spirit Animal well i met my animal plus one of my guides (thats another post lol) not long after that i meet my online mama who has helped me a great deal to over come my sisters passing thats when i knew i was back on the right path for me.

Meeting Tony

Well the year was 2001 the same year as my sister and best friend from the net passing and september 11.

It wasn't a happy christmas for me i was still on my dark journey but puting a brave face on for the world, but inside i was a mess.

The only bright spot for me that day was when i went on line. I signed into icq (a chat program like msn messager) i was just having a look around to see who or what wanted to talk, well one personal ad caught my eye "lonely south australia man wants to chat with lonely south australia female" but i didn't answer it streight away i came back to it about half a hour later and it was still posted i throught i would say (are you still lonely?) he replied yes i am lol.

Well we got talking for some reason i felt that i had to give him my phone number (normally i dont give it out unless i have chatted to the person 3 or 4 monthes) i told him to give me 5 mins before he called as i had to close down the computer so the called could get through and it gave me time to get in to bed too lol

Well we ended up talking for 3 hours lol i even got to see the phone bill AU $198 lol i said wow what a bill then he told me we were talking on his moble for those 3 hours lol. From that night we took turns to call each other lol and every night we talked for hours Tony would even fall asleep while talking to me lol and he would wake up holding the phone near his heart.

We met in person on jan 6th 2002 he drove up to kimba from berrie in the riverland area which is about a five hour drive.
He got lost in Kimba lol my fault i didn't give him the name of the street where i was living lol, he tried to call me but his moblie didn't work up here and the 2 pay phones where out of order lol but i was outside at the end of or drive when i saw a white car pull up out side the last phone box just up the street.
So i called out Hey are you Tony? and he said yes.

Then the next day decicded to go away for a fews days we went to a seaside little town callled Arno Bay about an hour and a half away from Kimba, we had a great time i think we fell in love on the saturday night as we watched the moon rise over the ocean it looked like the sea was on fire.

on our last day at Arno Bay Tony asked me to move in with him i did move in and we have been together ever since.
and we are still together.

Now on to how i became Spiritwind ( Windy to Kolibri )
well sis had a chatroom on msn free chatrooms i went in to say hi etc.
weill i saw whats known as a porn bot so i reported it to the host (the one who was able to ban it from the room).

to this day i still dont know how she got the bot and me.

weill i was talking to Koilbri in IM and asked her to help me back into the chatroom, but she couldnt help me so in the end i had to change nicknames but i couldnt tink of one lol.

So sis came back with Spiritwind which we both loved then she floored me when she said this "well you wanted to be named" what sis didnt know that i was going to ask her for a name. so thats how i became Spiritwind Windy for short pnly a handful are allowed to call me windy lol.


one of my earlier shows was The Tibetain Show.
Now that was an honour to meet his Holness the Dalia Lama.
I tried to stay in the background tried to stay out of the cameras way but it wasn't ment to be, i was ment to meet him lol

so now you all know about me lol

hugs
Kathy